There's nothing like getting your hair cut to motivate you.

So I got my hair CHOPPED today, it made me VERY happy. I also got my eye brows waxed too, and that rocked my socks.

On the flip side, I kind of hate getting my hair done. I mean I have to sit there looking, no, staring at myself in the mirror and when one is as unhappy with how i look as i am, there is no greater motivation.

I am a bit blue today

i dunno why, maybe the weather, maybe the fact that I haven't picked up my camera in a week to take pics of my adorable kiddos, who knows. But it has got to be fixed.

I am making an appt with my doctor to discuss my medicines. Apparently they are interacting with each other, and I never knew it. Oh wait, my doctors should have known about this too - a gentle reminder that your doctors don't always have the time to monitor your health (god forbid) and that you need to do it on your own.

I am crabby with my kiddos and it needs to stop. They are just being kids, and i need to lighten up.

I need to get the rest of this house done - it is apparently all on MY shoulders, as I have been told that he doesn't know where anything goes and doesn't want to go through it as it is all my stuff.

I need a schedule. My body is affecting my every day life - and the last time i told my doctor that i had an issue with being over tired, she said it was because i just had a kid (10 mos ago) and i told her no she is wrong and then went to my oncologist to prove it and low and behold, my thyroid was off.

I guess I am just bummed. I take care of everyone else in my life - watch their meds, talk to the doctor to make sure things are okay, it is wrong to just feel like someone should be watching after me once in awhile? I am tired of being responsible for everything to the point at which I forget about myself. Time to reevaluate our world. :(

I thought about a lot today.

I didn't do much with the kiddos today - or the past few days. I have kinda checked out. I have this nasty cold that nothing seems to be helping with, and my whole body is achy.

we filled our storage unit. it was supposed to be picked up this morning between 7 and 10. It is now 9:30 pm and they are STILL not here. nice eh? FWIW, we used the storage barn, and while it is convenient and the right price.....you get what you pay for. I am sure the neighbor lady is quite pissed off with us as it is partially (and by partially I mean like MAYBE 6 inches) blocking her garage or it is making it a bit difficult to get into and she has had to keep her car out of her garage for like 3 days. She is old, wears moo moos and is just one odd duck to begin with.

I quit my HOA. I gave notice three months ago and they have still yet to find someone to replace me. I can't do everything, and the HOA isn't making us money or helping my kids, therefore it had to go.

let's see - lil girl is quite the lippy one lately. who would have known at this age they become soooo independent and FREAKISHLY smart. the lil boy? well...let's just say he is one frustrated lil man as he is trying to communicate and we have good days and then we have days like today where he just yells at the top of his lungs for everything. time to brush back up on my sign language b/c i am NOT talking to him w/o signing the basics to him anymore. lil girl said she would help, and i have no doubt that she will but i am sick and tired of being screamed at all day long.

lil boy cut two teeth yesterday - or the day before is when i noticed that they stayed out of his gums. we have been working on these for about 6 months. thank god they are almost in. we were getting tired of the process - and i am POSITIVE he was too.

well, i am not sure that i will have time to write the rest of the weekend, so happy easter and all that jazz. :)

Dude. i am stressed :)

easter's coming, I have nothing for the kids, i have a MASSIVE cold and have a commercial shoot tomorrow morning, along with a private shoot in the afternoon.

we have a storage shed that just arrived, my mom is coming in 9 minutes to pick up the kids and it is freezing out and it has already started to rain.

my camera went on the fritz, but thank god i figured it out today. so that's one thing checked off my list. HOWEVER, i did spend 1k today on a lens, which was a good investment, but made me shake buying it :) I NEVER spend 1k on ANYTHING much less on a hobby/for my work for ME.

i am going to feel WONDERFUL tonight.

Looking for a job, don't know where to begin.

Things have hit an all time low here. Without going into too much detail, I am working on my resume and searching for jobs again. I think I will end up going administrative so that my hours are set. Who knows. I am feeling quite inadequate and out of the loop on things for a job, so we will see. I don't know how to dummy my resume down so that people will take me seriously for an administrative position - I haven't been an admin for 10 years.....and when i was looking for an admin position 2 years ago, no one would hire me and told me I would be bored and not appreciate the job - great eh?

Hmm...what to do, what to do.. :(

Having a hard time right now.

When I decided to go into business for myself, I seriously didn't know that it would be THIS hard.

Family. I MUST come up with a way to deal with FAMILY. I mean, my prices are set, and I am lower than most but not too low that I am not paying for my time.

And why does family feel it necessary to come to you and say, "so and so is charging X, why is your product more?" That's like me going to Old Navy and saying, I can find a comparable shirt at Sears, why are you more? and oh, btw, can you give it to me for less? AND THEN ME GETTING PISSED OFF ABOUT IT.

I have done a lot of thinking, and will continue to do a lot of thinking. But I am tired of dealing with people who complain about every. single. thing. Maybe I should just make a no family policy? This isn't the first family member who has offended me or hurt my feelings.

I had another family member get really rude with me immediately following the birth of my baby. Like 3 days after the birth of my baby. She didn't hear from me for 4 days, and then when I followed up with her, she said, and I quote, "you didn't respond so I went somewhere else"

While that was a true statement, she didn't write anything else, didn't sign her name, wasn't nice AND didn't bother to pick up a phone to call me to place the order OR get any questions answered.

Most of the time I think it is due to the fact that most business now days is done on the phone or over email. I am pretty sure that sentiments get lost over it, but there are some sentiments that come straight through emails......and those are the ones that i am getting mighty tired of.

the weekend is over.

and i am so happy!!! I am exhausted from the weekend, and now my back is bad again - i stood on my parents tile kitchen floor for hours, and now i can barely move. nice. NOTE TO SELF - bring crocks when doing that type of stuff at parents house - i am actually BEGGING them to put in hardwood floors - i mean if sis and i are doing cooking and we always hurt after, then they should help us right? ;)