I am a bit blue today

i dunno why, maybe the weather, maybe the fact that I haven't picked up my camera in a week to take pics of my adorable kiddos, who knows. But it has got to be fixed.

I am making an appt with my doctor to discuss my medicines. Apparently they are interacting with each other, and I never knew it. Oh wait, my doctors should have known about this too - a gentle reminder that your doctors don't always have the time to monitor your health (god forbid) and that you need to do it on your own.

I am crabby with my kiddos and it needs to stop. They are just being kids, and i need to lighten up.

I need to get the rest of this house done - it is apparently all on MY shoulders, as I have been told that he doesn't know where anything goes and doesn't want to go through it as it is all my stuff.

I need a schedule. My body is affecting my every day life - and the last time i told my doctor that i had an issue with being over tired, she said it was because i just had a kid (10 mos ago) and i told her no she is wrong and then went to my oncologist to prove it and low and behold, my thyroid was off.

I guess I am just bummed. I take care of everyone else in my life - watch their meds, talk to the doctor to make sure things are okay, it is wrong to just feel like someone should be watching after me once in awhile? I am tired of being responsible for everything to the point at which I forget about myself. Time to reevaluate our world. :(

I thought about a lot today.

I didn't do much with the kiddos today - or the past few days. I have kinda checked out. I have this nasty cold that nothing seems to be helping with, and my whole body is achy.

we filled our storage unit. it was supposed to be picked up this morning between 7 and 10. It is now 9:30 pm and they are STILL not here. nice eh? FWIW, we used the storage barn, and while it is convenient and the right price.....you get what you pay for. I am sure the neighbor lady is quite pissed off with us as it is partially (and by partially I mean like MAYBE 6 inches) blocking her garage or it is making it a bit difficult to get into and she has had to keep her car out of her garage for like 3 days. She is old, wears moo moos and is just one odd duck to begin with.

I quit my HOA. I gave notice three months ago and they have still yet to find someone to replace me. I can't do everything, and the HOA isn't making us money or helping my kids, therefore it had to go.

let's see - lil girl is quite the lippy one lately. who would have known at this age they become soooo independent and FREAKISHLY smart. the lil boy? well...let's just say he is one frustrated lil man as he is trying to communicate and we have good days and then we have days like today where he just yells at the top of his lungs for everything. time to brush back up on my sign language b/c i am NOT talking to him w/o signing the basics to him anymore. lil girl said she would help, and i have no doubt that she will but i am sick and tired of being screamed at all day long.

lil boy cut two teeth yesterday - or the day before is when i noticed that they stayed out of his gums. we have been working on these for about 6 months. thank god they are almost in. we were getting tired of the process - and i am POSITIVE he was too.

well, i am not sure that i will have time to write the rest of the weekend, so happy easter and all that jazz. :)

Dude. i am stressed :)

easter's coming, I have nothing for the kids, i have a MASSIVE cold and have a commercial shoot tomorrow morning, along with a private shoot in the afternoon.

we have a storage shed that just arrived, my mom is coming in 9 minutes to pick up the kids and it is freezing out and it has already started to rain.

my camera went on the fritz, but thank god i figured it out today. so that's one thing checked off my list. HOWEVER, i did spend 1k today on a lens, which was a good investment, but made me shake buying it :) I NEVER spend 1k on ANYTHING much less on a hobby/for my work for ME.

i am going to feel WONDERFUL tonight.