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I talked to my cousin last night, she is getting married. She has a lot of friends in our state that are getting married - she isn't located here, she is in California, but they can't decide between here or there, so they are going to get married in Florida!! LOL - Florida! wow. I don't blame her though, they are having a hard time with all family and friends, I just reassured her that your wedding is really for you, so make sure you enjoy it!
Anyway, I am going to SF in November, and at that time I will get to take her engagement photos- you have NO idea how freakin excited I am. NO IDEA. And she wants me there to take the photos for the wedding. I am so excited - my first wedding where I am the official photographer :) not that i wasn't before, but there are distinct differences between being the main and the 2nd. Her wedding will be small (most likely under 40 people), so no need for a 2nd, but i am truly excited for her (and secretly excited for me :)
That being said, I am sitting here looking at a mound of CRAP on my desk that MUST get attention today. That is my goal for today. I should post pics of my desk before and after...hmmm...i will go get a photo and then hopefully report on the progress later.
Friday, September 28, 2007
Monday, September 24, 2007
why i now am a proponent of carrying 4 beach towels in my car.
i am sure glad they make leather seats. so this week, no last week, on wednesday we were driving to costco - my sis, e and v, and myself of course. we got almost there, and then we saw something out of a movie- v was puking his guts out - like projectile vomiting in the car. i was amazed. we stopped, i pulled over. my sister went to e's side, she couldn't bare the smell or look of v. meanwhile i was digging out chunks of unprocessed broccoli and chicken and his lunch, pancakes. nice. just what i wanted to be doing. in my moment of sheer meltdown, i glanced in the back of the car and saw a bright pink towel - i ran to the back, only to see 3 more towels!! HOOOOORAYYY!!! I WAS SAVED.
so i threw one on my poor guy, and then drove home. wrapped him up in multiple towels, took him to the bathtub stripped and bathed (well, my sis did :) ) then e and i went outside and hosed off his carseat and the leather with baby wipes - WOW leather sure does clean well :) i was so excited!!
anyway, he puked all night. e puked all friday night and then he puked again last night. thank god i only felt queasy on sunday. or i would have been horrible to deal with. my babies are better - except v is trying to push through 4 eye teeth at once (which might explain his puking too)
so i threw one on my poor guy, and then drove home. wrapped him up in multiple towels, took him to the bathtub stripped and bathed (well, my sis did :) ) then e and i went outside and hosed off his carseat and the leather with baby wipes - WOW leather sure does clean well :) i was so excited!!
anyway, he puked all night. e puked all friday night and then he puked again last night. thank god i only felt queasy on sunday. or i would have been horrible to deal with. my babies are better - except v is trying to push through 4 eye teeth at once (which might explain his puking too)
Friday, September 21, 2007
oh no you di'nt
I have to tell you guys about my lunch date.
we went to lunch with a former co-worker. Now, she is pregnant, but not pregnant, she is a control freak whom can mostly hide it. Pregnant, she is a hormonally raging woman, whom is also of french origin, and holy shit she just about made me jump out of my seat.
to start this off, i feel really bad for my e. she was so sweet and so kind and i have learned my lesson, no more lunches with this woman.
the last time we went to lunch, she complimented me on how well behaved my children are and then proceeded to discipline e at the table, this from a woman who doesn't have any children AND well, she is not family therefore she cannot discipline my children.
so today at the table, e got in first, and then v and then me, so em was sitting by her at the half round table. e loved her and sat very close to her, which wigged her out (uh, get used to it, you are 5 months preggo) and then proceeded to tell e every. single. fucking. thing. that she did wrong, from coloring wrong, to using napkins wrong, to putting napkins down wrong, to accidentally kicking her, etc. it was a night mare, only b/c i could see the sadness in e's eyes.
by the time the food came, pancakes their FAVORITE, she cut them up for her, and then poured MAYBE a tsp of syrup for her. e asked for more please, and she said you have enough - HELLO NUTCASE - I AM HER MOTHER, AND YES I WILL DECIDE WHEN SHE HAS HAD ENOUGH.
so, minutes go by, e just eats her applesauce and then she sits back and almost looks like she is going to cry. i said, e do you want more syrup? and she said no, and i said, wow then i will have to use your syrup b/c you have a ton left! and then she smiled and said yes please, and i poured the entire heap on it - to passively prove a point.
you know, we do not go out often - or a better description of us going out is NEVER. we don't have the money - we go to lunch once in awhile with my mom, but going out - to a niceer restaurant than an italian deli, is rare. so my children can have whatever they want. period. (well, okay within reason, but a 4 tbsp syrup container is not out of reason)
anyway, it was horrible. by the end it was horrible. e kept kicking her (accidentally of course) but every time she kicked her, she would say - you are kicking me, you need to apologize now - hello lady - she is THREE. not THIRTY FIVE LIKE YOU.
i was so fuming by this point, i said, e to make sure that you are not invading her space please move towards me, and e did and she said, oh you don't' have to move, and i said yes she does b/c she is obviously bothering you.
you know, 3yo's sometimes point to things that they don't know what it is - that is how they learn what something is - and e pointed to a piece of food, b/c she didn't know what it was, but wanted to try it - and she immediately pulled her hand down AND DISCIPLINED her for pointing.
we got out of the booth, and she took v for a walk to the car, and i picked e up and gave her a huge hug and kiss and told her that it doesn't matter what a stranger tells her she is doing wrong, just as long as mommy and daddy love what she is doing she is doing just fine - and daddy and i are the only ones that she needs to listen to - and if she is uncomfortable in a situation, all she has to do is ask me to sit by me. she smiled at me and i was seriously about ready to cry. i hugged her and carried her to the car, i felt so bad - and for those of you who know me, I do not carry her (or v very much for that matter) anywhere.
WTF gives people the right to do things like this? i mean, i was FLOORED FLOORED. i couldn't deal anymore - i just told hubby that i will just have to be busy for the next 10 years if she calls for lunch again. or if she is lucky enough to have me answer the phone again in my lifetime.
at least my kids won't be with me.
we went to lunch with a former co-worker. Now, she is pregnant, but not pregnant, she is a control freak whom can mostly hide it. Pregnant, she is a hormonally raging woman, whom is also of french origin, and holy shit she just about made me jump out of my seat.
to start this off, i feel really bad for my e. she was so sweet and so kind and i have learned my lesson, no more lunches with this woman.
the last time we went to lunch, she complimented me on how well behaved my children are and then proceeded to discipline e at the table, this from a woman who doesn't have any children AND well, she is not family therefore she cannot discipline my children.
so today at the table, e got in first, and then v and then me, so em was sitting by her at the half round table. e loved her and sat very close to her, which wigged her out (uh, get used to it, you are 5 months preggo) and then proceeded to tell e every. single. fucking. thing. that she did wrong, from coloring wrong, to using napkins wrong, to putting napkins down wrong, to accidentally kicking her, etc. it was a night mare, only b/c i could see the sadness in e's eyes.
by the time the food came, pancakes their FAVORITE, she cut them up for her, and then poured MAYBE a tsp of syrup for her. e asked for more please, and she said you have enough - HELLO NUTCASE - I AM HER MOTHER, AND YES I WILL DECIDE WHEN SHE HAS HAD ENOUGH.
so, minutes go by, e just eats her applesauce and then she sits back and almost looks like she is going to cry. i said, e do you want more syrup? and she said no, and i said, wow then i will have to use your syrup b/c you have a ton left! and then she smiled and said yes please, and i poured the entire heap on it - to passively prove a point.
you know, we do not go out often - or a better description of us going out is NEVER. we don't have the money - we go to lunch once in awhile with my mom, but going out - to a niceer restaurant than an italian deli, is rare. so my children can have whatever they want. period. (well, okay within reason, but a 4 tbsp syrup container is not out of reason)
anyway, it was horrible. by the end it was horrible. e kept kicking her (accidentally of course) but every time she kicked her, she would say - you are kicking me, you need to apologize now - hello lady - she is THREE. not THIRTY FIVE LIKE YOU.
i was so fuming by this point, i said, e to make sure that you are not invading her space please move towards me, and e did and she said, oh you don't' have to move, and i said yes she does b/c she is obviously bothering you.
you know, 3yo's sometimes point to things that they don't know what it is - that is how they learn what something is - and e pointed to a piece of food, b/c she didn't know what it was, but wanted to try it - and she immediately pulled her hand down AND DISCIPLINED her for pointing.
we got out of the booth, and she took v for a walk to the car, and i picked e up and gave her a huge hug and kiss and told her that it doesn't matter what a stranger tells her she is doing wrong, just as long as mommy and daddy love what she is doing she is doing just fine - and daddy and i are the only ones that she needs to listen to - and if she is uncomfortable in a situation, all she has to do is ask me to sit by me. she smiled at me and i was seriously about ready to cry. i hugged her and carried her to the car, i felt so bad - and for those of you who know me, I do not carry her (or v very much for that matter) anywhere.
WTF gives people the right to do things like this? i mean, i was FLOORED FLOORED. i couldn't deal anymore - i just told hubby that i will just have to be busy for the next 10 years if she calls for lunch again. or if she is lucky enough to have me answer the phone again in my lifetime.
at least my kids won't be with me.
A very true statement for business.
I recently read another local photographers blog where she put down her competition, and even more directly, the photographer that took her family photos a few months ago!
Anyway, when in business in any industry, it is very important to know that you never know who is reading your public information. However, more importantly, putting down another business is just plain wrong. I understand the need to justify why you are different and to differentiate yourself from the competition, and you can do that without putting down others. It looks tacky and in the end it is just bad juju.
This is an excerpt from a post from a photography board I am on, this woman was recently accepted into the professional forum and did a lot of reading from a professionals standpoint. This is what she had to say about differentiating yourself amongst your competition and putting your competition down:
"So for those of you with websites that have 'about me' pages - if you are saying ANYTHING about your competition - that you are faster, cheaper, better , etc. etc. - can I highly recommend you take it out now! Seriously, you have NO idea how smart that would be until you get into the professional forum and start reading threads.
So this is my reminder: photography isn't like Coke and Pepsi. It's a true community and everyone is interconnected in some way. So putting down your competition now is as stupid as shooting yourself in your foot. I think you'll find that you'll have a hard time with the professional organizations later and that you'll be perceived as a very narrow minded person who cuts down the industry as a whole just to make yourself stand out - that you can't do it with talent so you do it with attacks."
Anyway, when in business in any industry, it is very important to know that you never know who is reading your public information. However, more importantly, putting down another business is just plain wrong. I understand the need to justify why you are different and to differentiate yourself from the competition, and you can do that without putting down others. It looks tacky and in the end it is just bad juju.
This is an excerpt from a post from a photography board I am on, this woman was recently accepted into the professional forum and did a lot of reading from a professionals standpoint. This is what she had to say about differentiating yourself amongst your competition and putting your competition down:
"So for those of you with websites that have 'about me' pages - if you are saying ANYTHING about your competition - that you are faster, cheaper, better , etc. etc. - can I highly recommend you take it out now! Seriously, you have NO idea how smart that would be until you get into the professional forum and start reading threads.
So this is my reminder: photography isn't like Coke and Pepsi. It's a true community and everyone is interconnected in some way. So putting down your competition now is as stupid as shooting yourself in your foot. I think you'll find that you'll have a hard time with the professional organizations later and that you'll be perceived as a very narrow minded person who cuts down the industry as a whole just to make yourself stand out - that you can't do it with talent so you do it with attacks."
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
My weight loss challenge.
So I found this awesome site - Spark People - and their site reminds me somewhat of weight watchers, only its FREE!!
I have been using this site, beginning this week. It tracks your weight loss, your exercise and, get this, MAKES MEALS FOR YOU!! And also has a place where you can add things if you don't want to eat their meal for the day.
I LOVE THIS SITE! Also, I am proud to say that since July I have lost 10 lbs. Seems as if the thyroid medicine is working :)
I have been using this site, beginning this week. It tracks your weight loss, your exercise and, get this, MAKES MEALS FOR YOU!! And also has a place where you can add things if you don't want to eat their meal for the day.
I LOVE THIS SITE! Also, I am proud to say that since July I have lost 10 lbs. Seems as if the thyroid medicine is working :)
Saturday, September 15, 2007
My heavy heart.
I read a blog often, it is about a young family whom just lost their child to cancer. I mean, it just seriously aches my heart. I get tears every time I read her entries, about dealing with daily life after her son passing. I know that she is hurting, and for some strange and odd reason, I really want to just drive 1.5 hours to see her and give her a hug. I don't know her personally, I have never met her. But I feel like I know her. I mean, we belong to the same "cancer club", the one that drains every living being out of your family, all the tears out of your eyes, and all the life our of your soul. Only I was lucky enough to survive. And so was she, her hubby and her two girls. And now we both (along with every other survivor and family member of a person who didn't survive) have survivors guilt. I mean, why did I survive? why did this poor small child not? Who picks and chooses?
My heart just aches for this family. And I am sending all the love and peace to them I can virtually.
My heart just aches for this family. And I am sending all the love and peace to them I can virtually.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
FABULOUS weekend
I had a FAB weekend with some girl friends. We went to the cabin, hung out, drank - and talked like teenage girls until the wee hours of the night. It was seriously what the doctor ordered.
I truly miss my girlfriends- or having them that is. You know, when you have play dates, it isn't really for the mommies with all of us who have children this age, it is truly for the kids as us mommies don't even normally get to finish a sentence because we are constantly looking after our kids and counting heads.
Since there was so much silence and time to think at night (massively due to children NOT waking us up, the house being pitch dark, and adding in a bit of alcohol to get some REAL sleep), I did figure out that I am not as nice as some. I have really been jaded along the line - maybe it was my upbringing (daughter and granddaughter of police officers), maybe running my own business or running a chat form or just my own life experiences that have made me really question people and who they are. I mean, really, there are some in my life (including online) that I have had differences with but I don't hate them or wish ill upon them, my feelings just get butt hurt sometimes and it takes me back to when I was a teenage girl. And I HATED my teenage years. I know that I will get over feeling this way, eventually, and I know that most people are truly nice people, but I guess you just need to draw lines for yourself so that you don't continue to get walked over.
I did come to the conclusion driving home in an empty car, singing my heart out to 80's and 90's music thanks to XM radio, that I desperately need to seek a physician who will listen to me and my concerns about my health. I am not "over" having cancer, I seem to have many emotional and psychological issues stemming from this and they need to be addressed. I am not the same person inside as I was 5 or 6 years ago. I mean, I don't intend to go back that way as I think you need to grow as a person, but I feel like the core of my being has been disrupted and I need to fix that and me before I can give fully of myself to others.
Does my hubby know this? yes. does he know that this is to the extent it is? probably not. I try to talk to him, but lately i am getting blank stares or the infamous 'what do you mean?' comment. Most likely due to the immense stress put on him by his boss in his job and then i feel like i cannot put more stress on him with this issue. So i guess i just feel like i am at this alone. Not many people understand the medical, physical and emotional stress and limitations that have been bequeathed to me, and no one knows how to fix it. And i am tired of talking to people about it that can't help me. Please don't take this as an I don't appreciate you listening to me and giving me hugs, I just feel that it is high time that I take this seriously and that I get myself help.
I truly miss my girlfriends- or having them that is. You know, when you have play dates, it isn't really for the mommies with all of us who have children this age, it is truly for the kids as us mommies don't even normally get to finish a sentence because we are constantly looking after our kids and counting heads.
Since there was so much silence and time to think at night (massively due to children NOT waking us up, the house being pitch dark, and adding in a bit of alcohol to get some REAL sleep), I did figure out that I am not as nice as some. I have really been jaded along the line - maybe it was my upbringing (daughter and granddaughter of police officers), maybe running my own business or running a chat form or just my own life experiences that have made me really question people and who they are. I mean, really, there are some in my life (including online) that I have had differences with but I don't hate them or wish ill upon them, my feelings just get butt hurt sometimes and it takes me back to when I was a teenage girl. And I HATED my teenage years. I know that I will get over feeling this way, eventually, and I know that most people are truly nice people, but I guess you just need to draw lines for yourself so that you don't continue to get walked over.
I did come to the conclusion driving home in an empty car, singing my heart out to 80's and 90's music thanks to XM radio, that I desperately need to seek a physician who will listen to me and my concerns about my health. I am not "over" having cancer, I seem to have many emotional and psychological issues stemming from this and they need to be addressed. I am not the same person inside as I was 5 or 6 years ago. I mean, I don't intend to go back that way as I think you need to grow as a person, but I feel like the core of my being has been disrupted and I need to fix that and me before I can give fully of myself to others.
Does my hubby know this? yes. does he know that this is to the extent it is? probably not. I try to talk to him, but lately i am getting blank stares or the infamous 'what do you mean?' comment. Most likely due to the immense stress put on him by his boss in his job and then i feel like i cannot put more stress on him with this issue. So i guess i just feel like i am at this alone. Not many people understand the medical, physical and emotional stress and limitations that have been bequeathed to me, and no one knows how to fix it. And i am tired of talking to people about it that can't help me. Please don't take this as an I don't appreciate you listening to me and giving me hugs, I just feel that it is high time that I take this seriously and that I get myself help.
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